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Changed.

2010-01-30T21:01:00.003+08:00

Yep, I've decided to shift to other blog provider. (:
I'll just leave this blog here. (At least you can look at my plurk.. >__<)

Fatigue

2010-01-30T17:36:00.003+08:00

This week has been hectic.
Tiring.
Been returning home later than usual everyday.
Exhausted.

Because of all the tiredness that has been accumulating,
plus some other issues,
I was kind of moody yesterday... Hais..

But slept at 8pm yesterday all the way to 8.30am today.
So I fine now! :D

I'm thinking of switching to other blog provider..
Should I?
I'm kind of sick of my current blog...
I admit it's very boring and dull. -.-
And sometimes blogger just sucksss. =x

Off to do my things~ (:

Time

2010-01-24T17:20:00.002+08:00

Went to fly kite again yesterday. :D
Encountered alot of problems... My kite couldn't go up yesterday. :(
But had a good time yesterday. (:

Exams coming soon again...
Will be Year 2 in April.
How fast time passes huh..
gonna be 18 soon. (:

I want to have more freedom...
So I can spend more time...

YAY~ :D

2010-01-15T21:54:00.004+08:00

had a shitty morning...
all I can say is autocad doesn't likes me. ):

Went to watch Sherlock Holmes with Yan Chin after school.

Interesting movie... with some funny elements. :D
The cinema was pretty cold. >__<

Next movie to watch:

14 Blades.
Seems damn interesting... :D

I prefer action-packed movies uh...
Thrilling but not to the extent of horror kind of thrilling.
Can't stand horror movies. =x

AND AND AND!

I'm going to Batam for leadership camp during March~! :DD
4D3N camp. :D
happy happy~ :D
Last year go Beijing, this year go Batam. What's next? :D
I want to travel all around the world~ ;D
Weee~ Can't wait... Very happy. x)

Blah.

2010-01-14T19:14:00.006+08:00

Lazy to blog. =x
Hectic week, but still manageable...
Lots happened.

Was really tired...
Coffee also no use. =x
And.
I have no idea what to blog....

Oh yah... met up with yeeliang and yanchin last saturday.
Long time never see that yee bah liang liao. hahaha. xD
he grew fatter liao lor. =x
and i'm taller than him again~ hahahaha. =x
I think I grew tall... But again, it's kind of impossible for me to grow anymore taller, yea?

Sunday went to fly kite. :D
Never flew a kite before... very suaku. haha =x
But was really very fun. :D
Shall go fly kite again if possible. xD
I know I'm deprived of childhood... Can't blame me. ):

Monday went to school early in the morning though lessons start at 1.30. Sibeh sian... -.-
Tuesday had ITOE workshop. My workpiece flew out... dangerous. -.-
(not my fault hor. machine lousy. >__<)
Wednesday was really bad. The day felt like it dragged forever.
11 finished class (supposely 12, but ended early) and waited till 1.15 for GEMS. totally zzz. -.-

And today...
Engineering Maths 3hours,
Lunch 2hours (no, don't be jealous. it's farking boring),
Electronics Pratical 2hours (but finished in 1hour),
rotted for around another 30-45mins,
ITOE tutorial 1hour.
Home-ed. Slack-ing. Kan sian...

Saw Cheryl and Victor during lunch break.
Accompanied them and watch them eat. hahaha. =x
hope cheryl will feel better... ;)

Tomorrow 4hours of AutoCAD. ah zzz.
CCA day for hua yi tomorrow, not going back.
nothing much for me to do also. =/
guess I shall go catch a movie alone or go home to rest. ;)

Super broke. T^T
Please rain money.... ;(

Hell.

2010-01-07T22:31:00.002+08:00

Did you even realised?

Gosh, damn tired.
Tired like dog... =.=
Fell asleep while sitting on the chair right infront of my laptop. zzz

Friday, Autocad~ x)
getting autocad results tomorrow...
My MST results is really damn buang. ): sighs...
Training tomorrow.
I think by the time I reach home I'll just lie dead on the sofa. x_x

Hopes everything turns out fine.
Really hope 2010 will be a really nice and different year. (:

Gosh

2010-01-05T17:40:00.002+08:00

In school right now.
Had OC presentation...
wore formal clothings, felt abit weird. hahaha
am still wearing it right now. LOL.
lazy to change.
Waiting for yanchin to finish her kickboxing, so we could proceed with our project.
Feel like sleeping now. zzz.

Browsing through a website.
It's freaking funny lah. HAHA. =x
http://www.engrish.com

Shall show you guys one.
Really really really damn funny. hahaha.

Creepy huh.
Imagine you're walking alone at night.
Then the grass smiles at you....
HAHAHAHA! =x

Alright,
shall go rotzzz.

Day at School

2010-01-04T17:06:00.004+08:00

Day at school after holiday.
Lessons at 1.30pm
But early morning met up with siyi and shikin for breakfast at KFC.
I wouldn't say KFC breakfast was very nice, but it's alrightt.
At least I could meet up with them. (:

Went home to get dust coat. (forgot to bring it out in the morning -.-)
Rushed to school, passed the dust coat to yanchin,
and rotted till 1.30pm for lessons. -.-
Manage to concentrate despite the lack of sleep yesterday night. *sighs*

请你对我说清楚，我不想乱猜...

2010

2010-01-01T14:22:00.003+08:00

You know.
Everytime there's events or festivals,
I'd stay at home and laugh at those idiots who went to squeeze with the crowd.
But I was one of those idiots yesterday. HAHA.
Crowd was really crazy.
It was literally 人山人海. Kind of scary if you asked me.
I wanted to watch those fireworks. ;D
They're really pretty.
Short-lived, but they light up the whole sky with booming sounds.
Watching those fireworks, I've made my 2010 resolutions. (:
Made me thought about some stuffs too.
Hope this year would be a better one, better than 2009. ;D

Got home real late. Like 2am.
My mum wasn't very happy. >_<

School in a few more days.
Got to finish up all the presentations and assignment. Gahh. ):

Happy New Year everybody.
Have a great year. (:

Ending 2009

2009-12-31T00:26:00.002+08:00

This post shall be about what I've done this year. (:

JANUARY
- O level results out
- 12 choices of courses
- Posting Results

Just one month, major part of my life is being decided.
Haha, kind of scary huh...

FEBRUARY
- Part-time job at Siam Kitchen

Well, my first time working.
Had a sense of satisfaction earning my own money.
Spending without much guilt. =x

MARCH
- Been 3years....
- Enrollment into Singapore Polytechnic
- Had my first camp as a CI (NCO Camp)
- Still working

Well, I admit that my first camp as a CI was a complete failure...
I'm going to make sure I do a very good job on the next NCO Camp to come.
And, still working during March.

APRIL
- Poly started
- Quitted my job
- Having thoughts about a CI

Started poly, was super excited. haha.
Modules seem interesting. (at that point of time)
I quitted my job cause it was really tiring me out.
going to school, then rushing to work.
go back home at night, bathed, K.O-ed and school early next morning.
totally can't take it.
quitted after 2-3week school started.
I was having thoughts about being a CI cause nothing was going right that time.

MAY
- Having thoughts about a CI

I was having thoughts about being a CI cause nothing was going right that time.

JUNE
- First exam(or rather test) in poly

Had MST (Mid Semestral Test)
my first exam in poly.
had different feelings about it.
anxious, afraid, excited.
hahaha.

JULY
- Participate in POLY 50

Was truely a fun experience.
Though ended up with one week's worth of pain and achings,
totally worth it.
Gonna participate again next year.
In fact I'm going to participate every year during my poly life. (:

AUGUST
- One year older.

SEPTEMBER
- First semester results out
- Got my crumpler bag
- Class Chalet

To get the crumpler bag i actually only spent 5bucks per week. LOL.
Now I look back, that's really extreme lah. hahaha. =x
Class chalet was damn fun.
But I got injured while riding the bicycle. (the scar is still there... ):)
Got to drink hard liquor for the first time. =x

OCTOBER
- BEIJING TRIP!

The big event of the year. ;D
2 weeks of Beijing. Totally changed my view about this world.
Learnt so much.
I'd like to travel around the whole if I could. (:

NOVEMBER
- Trying to catch up with school
- Post-Beijing Trip-Syndrome

Back from Beijing, tons of school work piled up.
Was damn stress, my emotions really went haywire.
Felt kind of down, further more I was missing the lifestyle in Beijing.
Their food, weather, places, and the pace over there.
Was really relax and slow-paced over there.
When I came back, I was suddenly thrown into a very fast paced situation. =/

DECEMBER
- HOLIDAYS!

This holiday was quite well spent. Kind of busy though.
Mostly busy with NPCC. haha.
manage to watch one movie per week though. Shall make this a habit. x)
Went to help out for the D09 investiture.
made me realised that I've been a CI for one year, hahaha.
made me think about alot of stuffs... (:

Well, that's about it.
Sorry for the shitty post uh... Mood not quite right. =x

Suddenly I miss my friends.
Maybe shall call them all out on the next holiday. (:

Hope that next year would be a good one. (:

There you go, somewhere you're not coming back.

2009-12-28T23:49:00.002+08:00

Packed Schedule.

Had training in the morning.
Tiring...
had lunch at JP (went to have a look at the new interchange >__<)
homed, bathed, and K.O-ed till 7.30pm. hahaha. =x

Tues and Wed back to SP for the F1 car project.
totally zzz-ness.

Thurday would be the last day of 2009 already.
2010 is coming.
I can't wait. Hope it'll be a better year.
I've already set goals and targets for next year.
Hopefully I could accomplish them. (:

Shall do a review of 2009 on my blog.
Probably on Wednesday. Stay tuned. xD

If life's too hard, break it. Cause things that are high in hardness are usually more brittle. ;D

Tiring Journey

2009-12-21T20:00:00.003+08:00

Yesterday marks the one year of my CI-ship.
I kept asking myself, what have I done?
The answer to myself is: Nothing.
I think I really wasted this year walking in circles.
I ask myself: "What the hell am I doing actually? I'm seriously going with the flow."
I've been wasting the whole year's time just going through motion in the unit.
I've got to start planning and try to do something about it.

Had training in the morning till noon.
Their promotion test.
Shan't talk about it, but it really zapped alot of energy.
Still moderating the results and got to send it out later.
Seriously exhausting.

Sometimes, people got to understand.
It's not the rank or title that matters,
it's the motive.
Do you think I really enjoy standing up there all alone? No CIs being active and going back often.
Being thrown with responsibilities and committments? All the teaching and proposals, got to be extra careful when handling these matters.
It's the wish to teach them that made me going.
I would much prefer my NPCC life during secondary school times.
There's squadmates whom will endure all the shit and share the happiness.
You have got companians with you.
But what about a CI? You're all alone. That's it. End of story.
NPCC room used to be bustling with noise and commotions.
But what about now? I sit alone in the room, deafened by the silence.
Sometimes it really made me think alot.
However there's nothing much I could do about it, so I'll focus on teaching those kids.
At least make myself a little useful to the unit.

A few more days to 2010,
I'm going to take this chance and change certain things about myself.
No more procrastinating, I wasted too much time. D:

These days I kept thinking about my dad.
Not a good sign.

SORRY. ><

2009-12-20T00:25:00.002+08:00

yahhh, i know i should blog.
people are asking me why i never blog already.
LOL, i'm so sorry lah.

after Beijing trip i was busy with catching up.
Then comes MST.
and then after MST I went to help out at area 19 ATC
and all the things are coming one after another one. zzz.

Just came back from D09 investiture a few hours ago,
it reminded me of one year ago.
How fast huh. =/

Quite a lot happened.
So much that I don't know where to start from.
Nevermind, let the past be past.
I shall try to blog more frequently from now on. (:

Ciao.

Beijing Immersion Trip- Food.

2009-11-07T15:49:00.011+08:00

Alright, I know I've been back for one week,
and yet I hadn't blogged at all.
Cause I'm trying to catch up in school.

AND, because there's too much photos to post,
I'll seperate them and blog on different days.
Today I'll just post up the photos of the food over there. :D

This is our welcome lunch.
and after I took this photo, MORE food came up.
I mean really ALOT MORE, the table wasn't enough for the food,
and we didn't finish a single dish. -.-

This is their Macdonalds.

See the pig there, yes, a pork burger. :D
Wasn't very nice tho. The veggie weren't as fresh as Singapore's one.

Had korean food too.
Guess what, this BIG bowl of rice, kimchi and a drink is only SGD 5dollars. :D
And it's VERY VERY VERY NICE. :DDD

Had the most famous Peking Duck over there.
It was superb. :D REALLY nice.

They had this porridge restaurant near the university.
It was good and cheap. Only SGD 5dollars per person like this. :D

Because it's good and cheap, we went back again. :D

They have Chinese fastfood too.
Same thing, one set with main course, salad and a drink cost only SGD 5dollars.

Another Chinese fastfood.
I had their Beef Noodles, REALLY REALLY GOOD.

Went to eat their 'homecooked food'.
It's like Singapore's Zhi Char lor.
Again SGD 5dollars per person,
which includes Stir-fried mutton, a big bowl of soup, Mapo Tofu and Dumplings.
We couldn't finish the food again. -.-

The first time we went there, some of them tried their Horfun and said it was nice.
So we went there again. One plate of Horfun is around SGD 2dollars.
I totally can't finish it. Only ate half of it.
But it's good.

This Beef Noodle restaurant is just beside the Zhi Char restaurant.
Cost around SGD $2.50.
Serving was so big that the guys couldn't finish it.
But I manage to, don't ask me why. Most probably it tasted not bad.

This Cafe is just right beside the hotel's lobby.
Had Black Pepper Chicken Rice and a cup of Hot Chocolate cause it was very cold that day.
It even rained, that's why we stayed inside the hotel and had our dinner.
Their food was so-so, but their drinks are the best. :D
Love their Latte and Hot Chocolate. :D

Wondering what I ate?
That's a stick of 4 small scorpions.
yes, you didn't see it wrongly.
It's SCORPIONS.
alright, I think you're getting grossed out.
Inititally I didn't dare to eat it, but I decided to have a go.
Stared very long at the scorpion and pop-ed it into my mouth.
And it's very nice and crunchy. :D
Tasted like soft shelled crab. xD

Me, Hui Yi, Justin, Nicholas, Melvin, Simon, Bryan.
The clique I always hang out with in Beijing.
They're really nice people. :)

Let's JUMP!

P.S. Just in case you guys think that I'm crazy for thinking that SGD 5dollars food as VERY cheap,
let me tell you that their serving is really very big.
I couldn't finish most of my meals.
And I think the price is really worth for its quantity and quality. :D

I'll post again sometime soon~!

Fly Away

2009-10-17T13:59:00.002+08:00

yo people, one last post before going to Beijing.
A few more hours to go~
checking in at 11pm and flying off at 1am+.

I'm rather excited and yet anxious/nervous.
=/

Hopefully I can have fun. :D
See you guys in 2weeks time.
Ciao.

ZZZ

2009-10-14T22:20:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH!

Went for the briefing session for Beijing Immersion Trip.
I was like a loner man'. -.-
I only talked to a girl for awhile, and she was the one who approached me. LOL.
the briefing was supposed to be from 2pm to 3pm.
But it dragged to 4pm.
So I was late meeting Cheryl, Yanchin and Junhao for around 1hr. ><

Went to eat Ramen at Japanese Food street. :D
YAY-ness. :DDD
Then I went to the cash deposit to deposit money for school fees.
And the machine ate my money up. AH ZZZ.
Went into the bank itself, and they say the money will be in by 2days,
or else I have to call.
Hopefully it will be in by Friday. zzz. T^T

Tomorrow morning I'm gonna go back to SP to apply for LOA,
then evening go back again for briefing for parents. zzz. -.-

I have to start packing my luggage already. :D

Excited to climb the Great Wall of China. :D

Shopping.

2009-10-12T19:47:00.003+08:00

WOOO, 95% satisfied from shopping. :D
I'll tell you where the the other 5% goes to later.

Met up with yanchin and junhao at JE platform.
Lets just jump to my harvest today. xD

Went to Far East Plaza and bought this:

White tank top with buttons.

Walk to Ochard ION, and bought these:

Denim Leggings from UNIQLO. $29.90

Pink Hooded Sweater from FOX. $39.90

and yeaaaa, the 5% that i wasn't satisfied about was because,
i look nice in pink. -.-
Pink is like my most hated colour,
and yet yanchin and junhao said I look better in this pink one rather than the black one.
And I kind of feel the same way too. zzzzzz.

But well overall, satisfied and happy today. ;D
Ready for Beijing this Sunday. :DD

:D

2009-10-06T11:58:00.002+08:00

YO HOHOHO! :D
went out with LORRENE and YANLIN yesterday. :D
veh longggg never see lorrene le.
we see each other only we hug. HAHAHA.
and the first thing she ask me was: "eh you got boyfriend liao ah?"
somewhat along the lines lah.
I was like: -.- "no."
LOL lah, what a question to ask when you see your friend from such a long time.
really long time never see her lah, since graduation from huayi.
we went to the japanese street to eat the RAMEN. :DDDDDD
My favouriteeee. ;D

then we went to buy my jeans.
one dark blue regular straight from levi strauss signature,
and one grey skinny from new future. :D
lorrene told me to buy a grey one. hahaha. :D
But nice uh, never tried grey one before. xD
hmm, then we walked around, buy bubble tea, go to watsons.
walked the whole jp to find a place to sit. LOL.

lorrene left early,
so my and yanlin wander around for awhile before heading home. :D

yesterday was really a good day. hahaha.
had a chat with julius and realise he's going for area 19's atc.
can see him. hahaha. :D
another one that I long time never see already. :D

People whom I really never see for a long time please call me out. HAHAHA.

Beijing in 2weeks time.

Class Chalet~ :D

2009-10-01T00:58:00.006+08:00

WAHAHA, class chalet was niceee. :D
can say it's the most crazy chalet I had. :D
Alright lets get started with my post.

Day 1, met up at pasir ris mrt.
got onto the wrong bus, alighted and walked. -.-
the day wasn't much fun lah, lets just jump to the night.

went to stock up on beverages and potato chips.
I was pushing the trolley and one of them said,
"wah, whole bunch of us stand here macham like you go shopping then we are your bodyguard."
LOL. -.-

Then we rented bicycles and rode to changi.

Ready to set off.

Mr Elyasa being the direction man.

The bunch of daredevils who went into OCH.
Weekiat, Amos, Nazrin and me stayed at the bustop to wait for them to comeback.
And guess what,
they tried to scare us by shouting, screaming and running "RUNNN!!" when they came back
bah, we didn't fall for that. instead we expected it. -.-
Oh, and on the way to changi, something happened.
It goes like this:
Sean: "Hey Li Er, look, there's an aeroplane."
Me: *Looks up* "Yea, I saw it already."
The next moment I knew, my bicycle went down a curb,
and BANG, I was on the concrete floor with my left knee scraped.
How classic. -.-
Later on whenever my classmates rode pass me they will be like:
"Eh Li Er, aeroplane aeroplane, look look,"
Bastardddd sia. T^T

Returned to chalet, played cards.
First was 'Muderer'.
Was damn funny,
we cursed and sweared at the 'police' when he didn't act when the muderer was on killing spree.
And some were plain obvious. HAHA.

Next is Indian Poker.
Each person has to draw a random card and put it on your forehead.
Can't look at the card, only others can see.
Then we will go one round adding beverages into a cup.
The 2 person with the lowest value have to drink up. 2 being the lowest, Aces being the highest.
Let the game begin. ;D

Alvin, Sean and Me.
My card's big. xD

LOL! Very bastard right.. HAHAHA.

Zhixiang with his card, obviously he lost...

Naresh and Amos.

Don't know what is these 2 doing, probably high already. -.-

Weekiat is the birthday boy, so yea...

Alvin. Obviously he's already tipsy. -.-
He kena 3 times in a row. -.-

Look at me at the background.
My world is already spinning that time. >__<

Naresh. What's with his finger. -.-

Forgot what we were talking about.
But it looked as if I was wanting that drink from Alvin. -.-
But I'm not. -.-
Well, look at my knee. ):

Pour pour pour. They pour until super happy. -.-

I left on the second day.

Went to watch Crows Zero II with yanchin and junhao.
was yanchin's birthday. :DD

I had to admit that Crows Zero II wasn't much of the plot.
More of actions and fighting.
I think it's still nice.
Crows Zero I was better tho. ;D

End it with a picture of me. :D

:DD

2009-09-27T21:04:00.005+08:00

"Heels are killer"

went out with chew today.

somehow, my head is very big. (yes, i know my head's big. -.-)
we went to buy my bag (^^) and walk walk.
hahaha.

YAY~!
I've got my bag. :D

Black Western Lawn.

Inside. :D

Bought Western Lawn cause I don't really need such a big bag.
Just a bag to use when going out.
To kind of replace my VERY bright orange bag.
I really like my orange bag, but it's damn tattered inside already. ):
maybe will carry it once in a blue moon. :D

alright, shall go pack some stuffs for chalet tomorrow. :D
ciao~

Time to update~

2009-09-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

I know you love me, but I can't feel it.

I've put a new blog song!
One of my favourite. :D
"I'll dance on your fucking grave"
HAHAHA! =x

anyway,
holidays is still not ending. -.-
I've already don't know watch how many animes already lor.
Next time I shall list it down. HAHA!
But now I'm watch Shounen Onmyouji.
Very interesting and nice.:D

And and and tomorrow I'm going to buy my crumpler already. :D
Yay~

Then on monday is class chalet. :D
Staying over for 1night only tho.
then tues going to watch Crows Zero 2. :DDD
Wednesday going for kayaking expedition. =/

The clock is ticking away seconds by seconds.

Results

2009-09-24T23:14:00.002+08:00

Errr.
I know I lag again. -.-
Results came out on 23Sep.
And I haven't told my mum the results yet. >__<
Wait until she ask me lah huh. T^T

GPA 3.417. gg lah. T^T

anyway, on a brighter side,
went out with yanchin and junhao.
go fix my laptop at henderson road.
but it turns out that they don't have the part.
so must wait. equals wasted trip. -.-
junhao left early, me and yanchin went walk walk. LOL
saw the crumpler bag I want in black. wee~
I can afford a crumpler already. :D
shall get the black one if there's still stock. :D
fast huh?
cause i only spend around 5bucks per week. -.-
yes, SGD $5. (-.-)

OH YAH.
I can't wait for class chalet.
woo~ :DDD
(though will be spending quite alot of money)

I think I save money save until siao already.
save save save,
I didn't know I could curb myself from those tempting food.
But I ate at Ben Ten today. $12 flew. T__T

very very very tired.
but I don't want to sleep yet.
"The night is still early"

alright, shall go and waste my time. ciao~ ;D

T^T

2009-09-22T22:40:00.003+08:00

MY LAPTOP IS FAULTY!
OMG LAH! T^T
less than one year nia leh.
the screen keeps flickering. zzz.
gonna get it repaired on thursday. *sighs*

anyway, i haven't mentioned that I actually handed up my probation form.
was being forced to. -.-
but anyway, whether forced or not,
I handed up my form, I'll try my best to benefit the unit. :D

had CCA today, quite abit of progress. HAHA. xD

I want to eat hotcake for tomorrow's breakfast. ):
But I'm saving money. T^T

Wasted Trip

2009-09-21T00:08:00.003+08:00

woke up at freaking 5am to get to Malaysia,
and it ended up as a wasted trip.
Didn't do much, didn't get a bag like I planned to.
Only got 2 T-shirts and a bunch of mosquito bites. -.-
And now, I know how crazy and scary aunties can get. -.-

Alright, I'm like saving crazily now.
To get 2 bags. 1 messenger bag and 1 backpack.

For Messenger Bag:

Either this Crumpler which is $98,

Or either of these 2 Manhattan Portage which costs arount $120-$140. (@__@)

For Backpack:

I've decided on this. $34.90
Either a black or orange.
Can't make up my mind.

Give me some suggestions please~ ;D

Tired~ =.=zzz

Mental Disorder

2009-09-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

I dreamt that I dyed my hair reddish brown.

SIGHS!
~~sibeh boreeeeeeed ah!~~
I am very very very bored.
I've got no idea what to do.
Seriously bored out of my mind.
Any ideas on doing something constructive?

I want to buy alot of things.
So I need alot of money.
So I am going to save up alot of money.

Shit, I'm like so bored until I'm talking weird. -.-

Photos.

2009-09-10T01:30:00.007+08:00

Alright, just when I posted up my post,
I went to farah's blog and realised she had already posted the photos.
So... I'm gonna put them on my blog now.
Just continue to the next post once you finish looking at the photos on this post. ;D

Here's YANLIN!

XULAN! (I was trying hard not to let keeteng in)

ME! I didn't like the idea of having olga to take a photo with me. ):

SURIANAH! see, olga is trying to be an extra.

Know why she could do so already? cause she was sitting right in the middle of us.

Finally she gets her own photo taken.

KEETENG! and her jiaobin. =x

AFTER dinner:

decided to sit at the basement.

Why? Look at what's olga's hand is holding onto.
yes, while waiting for her to eat, we decided to sit at the basement and chill.

still happily eating her yogurt.

and we were happily taking photos too.

still eating... (look at keeteng, how glam...)

still taking....
until... we decided to have a "let's isolate keeteng" scheme.

we didn't want to let her sit with us...

"blehhh...."

staring with envy.

still staring with envy...

LOL! can't help it when farah LOVESSS our legs. -.-

decent group photo. :D
we went it the toilet to take the photo, then we went out. -.-
just go into the toilet for the sake of taking photo. HAHA!

alright, it's 2.05am already. O____O
gosh, I think I better go sleep already.
bye peeps. :D

Finally posting. -.-

2009-09-10T00:59:00.005+08:00

Alright, I finally mange to set my blogger back to normal.
Turns out to be my fault that my blogger went haywire. -.-
So I think I blog more often from now on. :D

Had dinner with the girls just now.
I had a fair share of craziness with them. HAHA!
(will post the photos once I go 'kope' from farah's blog. xD)
Ate at the new prata shop. Food was quite alright. (:
Bought a FOX hoodie. (on sale) WOO~
Thick thick, very warm and fuzzy.

There, there. Nice?
The thickness should be just nice with the weather at Beijing in October(autumn) huh?
Oh yah, most of my friends should have known that I'll be going to Beijing for 2weeks.
The first 2weeks of school. So it means that I'll miss my lessons. -.-
So now I'm actually buying long-sleeves shirts and jacket. (I'm not resistance to cold)
Need 2 more pair of jeans.
Hopefully it will be fun and rewarding since I'm gonna miss 2weeks of school.

Oh yah, I actually went out with my godma on Monday to orchard to eat and shop.
Had our lunch at the Sakura buffet at Orchard Shopping Center.
I can tell you that, DON'T go there.
It's not worth it.
Each person had to pay $22++, and the food was !$@^%$#^% horredous.
Selection was very limited, the food was only so-so.
Utterly disappointed at the selection of food.
I'd rather eat at some coffee-shop.
At least I'd feel more contented.

6weeks of holiday for me is sure packed. HAHA.
Every Tuesday: CCA at SP
Every Friday: NPCC Training (not sure about that, but I'll have to just keep my Fridays free)
10 Sep: Back to SP for training.
12 Sep: Delta Outing
20 Sep: To Malaysia for 1day
28-30 Sep: Class Chalet
30 Sep: Pulau Ubin Kayaking Expedition
10 Oct: Some stuffs that got to do with the immersion trip
18 Oct - 1 Nov: I'll be in Beijing
How cool is that. At least I live life fullest. HAHA! :D

P.S Try not to jio me out. I'm saving money. (since I don't think I have the time to work. =/)

I guess that's it for now.
Will post once I get the photos. :D

NUSRUN 09

2009-08-30T19:07:00.002+08:00

didn't get to run. ):
all thanks to the weather.
raining quite heavily, was shivering.
cause I was wearing the running singlet provided.
bought their tee-shirt to wear cause buay tahan the temperature. X__X
sian lor, woke up early for nothing.
ate ajisen ramen with chew. :D

headed home, use lappy for awhile, slept.
now i'm gonna practice maths.
I'm so screwed. >__<

sighs.

2009-08-29T21:52:00.002+08:00

I won't burden anybody.
I don't want to.

HOHO! Running 5km Fun Run tomorrow. :D
hopefully I can finish lah hor. ><
some of you might say: "CHEY! 5km nia. people run 42km de leh."
but I tell you.
I've never run 5km before.
The most i ran was around 3km during poly 50.
and I almost died with muscles ache for 1 week. =.="
but well, tmr's is a run/walk thingy.
I'd just go there for an experience. :D

Off to practice for my maths paper. :D
Waiting for the 6weeks of holidays. :D

AHHH!

2009-08-27T17:04:00.000+08:00

COMPUTER PROGRAMMING SUCKS!
I'm gonna flunk it tomorrow. T^T

Fun fun day. :D

2009-08-20T20:58:00.002+08:00

Waaah, I'm damn tired.
but I enjoyed my day. :D

there's no lessons today,
but went back to school to study with some of my classmates.
after studying went rock-climbing with them.
my first time trying. xD
nice, but my arms feel like they're gonna break off now. HAHA.
after rock-climbing,
we went to play tennis.
my first time playing tennis also. :D
damn fun lah,
though i pak jiao, always miss the ball. heh. xD
the rest of them went for dinner while i home-ed.

got to study now.
exams next weeeeeeek. ):
i really hate exams. >:{
bye~

Results

2009-08-19T18:36:00.002+08:00

SPOT has sent out emails to those who are in.
And I didn't get one.
So you know what I mean.
Well, I'll go GEMs instead then. :D
time to go pick out the GEMs I want to do next semester. xD

stayed back after school
Played WII, raving rabids FTW! :D
after playing, studied with classmates. :D
only managed to do half an array question. -.-

tomorrow there's no school,
friday too. :D
but going back to school to study and play tennis with classmates tomorrow. :D

well, been in poly for around 4months already.
still enjoying everyday.
poly is really like having holidays,
just only when exams are around the corner, have to mug really hard. =/
everyday in poly is fun, as in i get to play and try new things.
the only thing is that, it's abit sian, cause all the lessons are damn early.
so have to wake up and squeeze in the train.
i'm sort of getting used to this lifestyle already.

ciao.

Sighs. =/

2009-08-18T18:28:00.001+08:00

The SPOT results isn't out yet,
so I can't update about that. =/

well, stayed back and played worms,
then studied abit.
got bored and drew these:

well, i did some editing here and there in my phone to make it clearer.
:D
I was just bored lah. HAHA.
cute anot? xD

haha, off to do my c-prog quiz lah. ~.~

RARR!

2009-08-14T20:52:00.002+08:00

gosh lah, i just can't seem to be able to upload photos.
i have no idea why, don't ask me.
kay kay, let's get started.

had dinner with chew and yam on wednesday.
to celebrate my super belated birthday. :D
Thanks ah! ;D
had lots of fun~
and nice ramen too. woo~
i was late, so was chew.
cause before that I went to pulau tekong for the BMTC visit.
school trip. LOL.
yea, so it kind of dragged, and i went home first to get money.
but chew was later than me lor. HAHA! =x
yam waited for us until she went home first. -.-
well, what's important is that we meet up, have fun, gossip over dinner table. HAHA!
home-ed after that. felt like fainting, cause i was super tired. LOL~
(shit, suddenly i can't remember what i did yesterday.) -.-

let's talk about today then.
highlight of today: SPOT Interview.
gosh, i felt really silly lah.
i was SUPER SUPER SUPER nervous and scared you know.
i kind of skipped lunch cause i don't have appeitie though i'm hungry.
Just when i was damn hungry and bought a bun to eat,
my stomach is like rejecting the food. the feeling is damn sick lah. gah.
waited and waited for 2.30pm to come.
did sudoku, watched my classmates play games.
after one of my classmate went for the interview, (he was before me)
i got very nervous. -.-
he came back after like 10mins lah, damn fast lor.
i went to the staff room at 2.15pm.
knocked on the door, greet and sat down.
they started asking me questions and gave me scenarios.
I swear they really asked alot of questions and gave alot of scenarios.
I was stuck inside for like 20-25mins. goddamnit.
lucky they were quite friendly.
somewhat like a chit chat session lah, i felt really silly for being so nervous. -.-
went to find my classmates at moberly after that.
(actually was going swimming with chew, but she got something on and fang fei ji. HAHA!)
played a game of ______ (i don't know what's that game called lah)
then we played wii. RAVING RABIDS!
SUPER FUNNNNN LAH! :DD
it's a game that is damn exciting, funny and tiring.
damn fun lah. :D
after that home-ed lor. ):

haha, end here lah hor.
like very long-winded. haha~

New Target.

2009-08-06T22:29:00.001+08:00

HOHO!
I've changed my target.
It's this:

Black One.

Orange One.

Which one nicer? xD

Backpack.

2009-08-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

"Backpack, backpack~" -Dora the explorer. -.-
okay, I know.

"I need a backpack" is what i kept saying recently.
got a little extra cash now,
but i'm freting over which one to buy. =/

screw it, i can't upload photos. zzz.

alright i'll just post the links here.

Crumpler Seedybar(backpack): http://www.crumpler.com.sg/media/images-html/SE06A-img01-788a42b0-2b5f-40a0-8eba-67cc1ae7adbb.jpg

Crumpler Mahoubar(backpack): http://www.crumpler.com.sg/media/images-html/MB02A_img01fb064895-da5b-46ce-9b62-ce90660214ec.jpg

Chrome Citizen(messenger bag): http://ep.yimg.com/ca/I/yhst-63188713721465_2064_12759489

WHICH ONE SHOULD I BUY? >:{
chrome seems nice, but then it's like sold only in america?
singapore has it lah, but then don't know if have the one i wanted.
since only one or two shops in singapore sell them,
i think the price will be quite high. =/
is the price and within what i expected and got the design i want,
i'm certainly going for chrome. :D

saving up another 50bucks before i get my bag. :D

okay, that's all i guess?
ciao~

gosh.

2009-07-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

血特!
I said I will blog in the evening, end up i forgot.
too tired lah. >__<

POLY 50 was 2days ago,
yet i'm still suffering the after effects of it.
muscle ache. second day muscle ache is usually the worst for me.
I was walking like a zombie lah, even my teacher ask me why i walk like zombie like that. -.-
I would say POLY 50 was tiring, crazy, violent(a little), and DAMN FUN LAH! HAHAHA!
so going to go again next year. :D
got a small keychain for souvenier. heh. xD

lucky yesterday don't have ONOW in the morning,
so can go school at 10pm till 12nn for c-prog.
after c-prog went clementi's sumo house to eat.
had wasabi challenge. damn LOL.
jeffrey, amos, me, sean ate the whole chunk of wasabi,
only stacey and daniel didn't. LOL!
wanted to upload the videos on facebook,
but it's freaking slowwwwww and laggggg.
only managed to upload amos and sean's.
was laughing like crazy at sumo house. lol. =X

well, today,
had school then go back hynp for training.
damn slack, but still i'm very tired.
can't sleep yesterday night, went to bed at 2am, fell asleep only at around 3am. -.-
know why?
'casue when I stretch my leg, muscle ache.
when I try to turn, muscle ache.
when I hug my bolster, muscle ache.
^!$@&!$@&!
but well, I think next few days it will be better. :D

I'm really really really tempted to sign up for SPOT.
there's advantages and disadvantages lor. ):
advantage: no need take gems, can go for leadership camps, exchange programs and stuffs.
disadvantage: need to study current affairs, something like GP. -.-
SHOULD I? @___@
should I go apply for SPOT or stick to gems?
they last for the same time. 3years.
should I apply, I might not get in anyway, cause there will be a round of interview. =/
just like SP Scholars. I didn't even get to the interview. -.-

RAWR! going back school tomorrow for project. zzz. T^T

>__<

2009-07-31T01:50:00.001+08:00

I WANNA UPDATE!
I promise I update tomorrow. (or rather later in the evening)
I want to update about poly 50 and stuffs. ):
But I got to sleep already. T^T

zzz.

2009-07-26T15:05:00.000+08:00

There's really something wrong with my blogger.
But I shall try to blog a little. =/

My week was... well, I could say it's fine.
Getting a little sian of poly life already. =x
CCA was okay, but I feel that I can do much more better.
Just can't seem to get it right. =/
I realise paying attention and putting in effort really makes alot of difference.
I didn't know how I survived my secondary school and O levels.
It's no wonder that people are not happy with my attitude towards studies in the past.
I can't say that I'm trying my best at this moment,
but at least I make an effort more than I did in the past.
I was super late the first time in my whole life for lesson.
My lesson starts at 8am, I woke up at 8.02am. WOO FTW.
Jumped out of bed and rush to school.
Reached at 8.45pm. Still manage to mark my attendance. *phew*
Btw, there's people who are even more late than me. HAHA! :D
This poly life, too much freedom. Lol.

Poly 50 in 3 days time.
I never really train for it lah. I'm-so-dead. >__<
Just hope that I won't pull down the team by alot. =x
Joining RunNUS 09 with siyi on 30August.
Why suddenly I seem so interested in all these running competition?
cause it force me to exercise once in a while.
no PE lesson in poly, 6foodcourts with all the food.

Yesterday I was making coleslaw,
and the carrot was super hard, so I accidentally went CHOP on my left index finger.
alot of blood lah, bloody hell.
I wash it, put plaster.
Today morning I took out the plaster and the wound is already closed,
not very obvious, just a faint red line.
healing in less that 24hours? is that really possible? I was surprised.
I was expecting to suffer for the next few days lah. -.-
anyway, the coleslaw turns out nice. :D
(don't have my blood lah of course. -.-)

I've been eating non-stop for these 3 days,
how am I suppose to run properly for poly 50? so dead. >__<

ciao~ off to study.
semestral examinations are coming~

I want to updateee.

2009-07-26T13:49:00.000+08:00

BUT THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY BLOGGER! ROAR!

2E5 Dinner

2009-07-21T14:58:00.004+08:00

kayyyy kay, i know seriously i laggg daoo.
but well, i'm gonna post up the photos here, if not it looks real dead.

met up, had dinner at sakura buffet.
damn shiokkkk.
i aim the cakes there. HAHA! :D

GIRLS~

Us again~

the guys~ without daren. he came when we were about to go home.

the light-coloured people.

The dark-coloured people.

The dark-coloured people again. (cause daren came and he was wearing black too. HAHA)

Kristle~ (i loook damn tanned beside her. -.-)

sasfinn! :D

I don't like her cause she's taller than me. HAHA! =x

Group photo number 1.

Group photo number 2.

Group photo number 3.

kay kay, i'm off to try the c-prog revision paper before CCA starts.
ciao~

Marriage

2009-07-16T22:47:00.002+08:00

okay, somehow i got random.

don't you think that marriage is like a 2-seater bicycle?
the person infront leads the person behind as he prefers?
opinions of where to go might be different, and somehow leads to disagreement?
won't it be better to ride a normal sinlge seater bicycle?
you can go where ever you want, do stunts with the bike,
turning, speeding up as and when you want.
2-seater bicycle don't allow you to do stunts,
and when you want to turn or speed up, you'll have to consider the person behind?

some say love and marriage is all about giving and taking, considering your partner's feeling.
but i say a different thing, is love so great that one will be willing to give up everything?
is love a need or a want?
people alway says that marriage is a grave.
but why are they digging their own grave?

alrightttttt, i'm being totally random,
just another rubbish thought.
i always can't manage to out my thoughts into words properly. =/

on the other hand, i'm going for 2E5's gathering dinner tomorrow,
kind of odd, cause i've never really gone for 2E5's gathering due to my mum being damn strict in the past.

i want my freedom and life.

D.E.A.D

2009-07-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

gosh, i'm dead beat.
reached home at around 11pm lah.

went to east coast after school to clean the beach. -.-
for CIP.
then went to skate and cycle.
fell down 3times, 2times on skate and 1time on bike. -.-
tried to turn, cycle into the grass patch and i tried to pull the brake but it was the wrong one,
and fell out of the bike. ftw man.
a little injury on the thumb.
damn stupid lah, noob in skate fall down also never injured,
instead it's the bike that i know how to cycle, i fell and injured myself. knn.
maybe too long never cycle liao lah.
damn shiok. :D
after playing, some went home, so went to eat.
i went to eat, that explains why i reached home so late. =/

zzz, seriously damn tired lah.
tomorrow don't want go school~ lol, joking lah, cannot pon.
tomorrow got presentation and C-prog. -.-
sian, haven't do C-prog yet. now go do. >___<

i want to learn skating. =x

c-prog, i have to finish it.
guess i'll be sleeping damn late. ciao!

grahh. :(

2009-07-14T14:02:00.002+08:00

i only got 57% for my C-prog MST. ):
lucky i got the full 5marks for being puntual and turn up for lessons. HAHA. =x
i really think the teacher's aiming me. =x
cause i'm really weak in c-prog.
why? cause i don't like it. obviously. -.-
i think i like maths better. >__<

3As 2Ds. wtf. _l_
my results are so damn extreme.

just finished my CRS essay test at 1115.
stayed up till 1am to finish up my research. -.-
sighs lah.
i wanted to sleeep. but i'm like stuck in school.
have to wait till 5.30pm for cca. ):

people around me are like getting sick.
am i a plague what what?
my classmates getting sick, my brother has got fever yesterday,
while walking into the campus, there's this thermo scanning machine thingy,
yesterday a girl infront of me got stopped by the security guard cause i think she's got high temperature.
and today a guy behind me got stopped by the security guard too. -.-
seriously i think i'm the plague itself. -.-

kay kay, off to rot and wait for CCA to starts. =/

Promises

2009-07-12T13:03:00.004+08:00

Along the journey of our life where we tumble, fall down and get up,
there are times that we lose something and gain something.
The things that we lose seems much more than the things we get.

Went to orchard yesterday with cheryl, yeeliang and their respective gf/bf.
I wanted to go home the moment I step into orchard,
cause I was like a mega lightbulb. -.-
But well we headed to far east to eat the ramen that yeeliang's gf recommended.
was not bad. =)
Well, some stuffs happened there.
affected, but not angry. no harm done. ;D
Went our seperate ways after eating and buying bbt.
went to city hall area with cheryl and victor.
yes, once again i was a lightbulb,
but well, who cares, I've been a lightbulb for my life.
caught transformers 2. :D
super nice.
walked around suntec and headed home cause my mum is spamming msg already. -.-
crap on the train and cheryl can't stop laughing -.-
seriously need to get a portable stool for her when she goes out. LOL.

people change, things changed.
It wasn't like how it was before.

>:{

2009-07-10T19:12:00.002+08:00

I've gotten back my Thermofluid results.
80/100 zzz.

Currently I'm feeling super grumpy.
after having some exercise in the afternoon,
I just wanted to go home to bath and sleep.
I didn't know my brother brought his friends home,
that's okay. (even though I don't really like outsiders in my home)
The problem is that they're making super lots of noise.
I lie on the bed for 2hours plus,
and I didn't even manage to catch any sleep.
I was fucking pissed. I was cursing and swearing in my mind lah.
Bah, forget about that.

C-prog results left.
sighs, only getting it back next week.

I'm really really really pissed.
seriously, my mood is very bad now.
I could curse and swear for 1hour non-stop, no joke.

Respect, Consideration

SIGHS.

2009-07-08T22:26:00.003+08:00

roar roar roar.
I have now on my hand 3 out of 5 test results.
and I'm aren't very happy with it.
not to mention that my F. maths result was depressing and horrendous.
sighs.

Engineering Materials - 81/100
Fundamental Mathematics - 59.5/100 (T__________________T)
Electrical Technology - 93/100

sighs, my maths is really really really depressing.
my classmates score 90+ and even full marks.
whereas me? barely 60marks.
damnit. :(

my class is scary. =x
for the 3 of the papers mentioned above,
each has 1person scoring full marks for it.
scaryyy, got to buck up, pull up my socks. *laughs (suddenly thought of a joke)*

might be getting C-prog results tomorrow.
not pinning any hopes on it, didn't even manage to finish that bloody paper.
I'd be happy if I could pass.
and I'd be flying if i could get 60marks.
Thermofluid result will only be known during lesson on friday.
should be okay... cause teacher told that nobody failed. (if his memory didn't serve him wrong)

yea, i'm joining this.
with cheryl's class, cause they ain't got enough females.
has been gazillion years since I exercised. >__<
so I think I need to start training now.
gosh. stressful. =x

ciao~
gonna do C-prog homework.
seriously maths is not the subject i hate anymore. :X

dresses

2009-07-05T21:55:00.003+08:00

(oh-my-tian. why can't i upload photos. T^T)

out with shikin today
wanted to get some cd.
so went over to orchard hmv.
but couldn't find any of the cds i wanted. =/

so we went to shop instead.
bought 2 tops. and spent like 60 bucks. T^T
someone take away my atm card please. ):
time to saveeeeeeeeeee. :D
i feel like buying dresses. -.-
(i know some of you are going to laugh infront of your computer. pfft. >__>)

aww mian there's school tmr.
have to wake up early already. ):
There's school tomorrow right?
cause i heard from shikin that jjc is having youth day holiday tomorrow.
lucky them, i don't think poly have this kind of holiday tho. =/

bah, whatever~
off to play bejeweled blitz. :D
(can't seem to break my record. graah! =/)

Human Nature

2009-07-04T20:59:00.004+08:00

When you point your finger at someone
saying that he don't deserve this,
he don't underdstand what problems you have,
etcetra ectcetra,
Have you wondered that you are not the only one with problems?
Do you think you understand what problems he have?
Did you know that his problems might be much more worst than yours?
Have you ever wondered that after pointing your finger at the poor guy, he keeps quiet?
It's not because you hit the jackpot, you idiot.
That's most probably because he knows his problem is much bigger than yours,
and he can't be bothered with you.
In that case, you'll just making a fool out of yourself. :D
You are not the only one with problems,
everybody have them too.
If you think that you have the worst life,
then let me tell you that there are lots more people with lives more difficult than yours.

No, I'm not shooting anybody.
Just to let out some of my thoughts. :D

And really,
I know that not much people listen to hardcore music,
and some people thinks that it's senseless noise pollution garbage.
but well, to those who like this kind of music,
we appreciate it.
we listen to it cause we like it,
we have our own reasons.
so stop being stereotype.
what's wrong with listening to these?
cause, we are the ones who listen to it, not you.
well, I'd just say that different people have different taste.
be glad that we are just keeping quiet when you are saying how stupid these music are.
I mean, it's okay when people comment about it once or twice,
but it really gets on your nerves when people keep harping about it.
everyone has a limit. :D
respect people's decision.

seriously, I swear I'm not shooting anybody.
if I'm shooting, it'll be much more worst. (:
kay lah, I know it's a bit harsh.
but well, I manage to put my thoughts into words.
raise your hands if you agree with me. xD
kay, that's all for today.

everybody is different.
respect each individual and treat them the way you want them to treat you.

MST Day 5 (LAST DAY! :D)

2009-07-03T21:58:00.003+08:00

YES YES YES YES YES YES!
shout "YESSSSSSSSSS!" with me.
MST is freeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaking over. :DDDDD

Thermofluids I paper today,
last question i think gone case liao lor. haha.
whatever lah.
MST IS OVER~!

after paper went to eat lunch.
finally i manage to finish my food though my appetite wasn't very good.
don't know what's wrong lah.
maybe i'm going to die already. HAHA!
it's like so weird for me to say i don't feel like eating anything lor.
cause normal i'm those kind of people who crave for different food each hour. HAHA!
suddenly i lost my appetite. weird... =/

anyway, home-ed after eating.
and slept all the way till 1830. SHIOK! :D

PBL tomorrow. sighs.
C-prog really suckss big time. ):

i'm really sick of it.

MST Day 4

2009-07-02T21:46:00.004+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I didn't manage to finish my C-prog paper. fuck. ):
Finally when I knew how to do,
they don't want to let me finish it in time.
fuck fuck fuck. D:

I know how to do de lorrrrrrr. ):
damn sad lah, nbcb. ):

Thermofluids tomorrow,
AND THAT'S THE END FOR MY FIRST MST IN SP. :D
yes yes yes. :D

I've like got no appetite lah.
I only ate 1 meal today during brunch, and I didn't even finish it.
left quite alot lor. ):
skipped breakfast and dinner.
sighs.

I'm seriously damn lethargic lah.
downed 2 cups of coffee in the afternoon.
thos vending machine de cup lah, so small lor, not enough. =x
homed after studying, slept till 8.40pm.
play facebook, blog.
next is to go bath and chiong thermofluid till 2am. :D

tomorrow's the last day. :DDD

MST Day 3

2009-07-01T23:35:00.006+08:00

Fundamental Maths paper today.
fundamental sounds like chicken feet right.
too bad, not for me.
my maths sucks since primary school. -.-
i had 20marks flown away from me. sighs.

slept at 3.30am cause i was determined to finish the MST sample paper. =x
only to wake up at 7.40am and realised i was gonna to be late.
rushed, reached school around 8.20am. :D
i wasn't late for the paper. haha. xD

stayed back to 'study' for c-prog.
ended up playing facebook games. omgz.
reached home about 5.10pm. =/
went to sleep till 8pm then i wake up for my dinner. -.-
buay tahan lor, i still want to sleep. no appetite at all. ):
i think i lost weight. wtf. -.-

kay kay,
C-prog tomorrow.
I don't want to pin too much hope on that one.
Just complete the practice at the end of the notes, then i'll go sleep already.
tomorrow morning revise again. :D

will update tomorrow after i reach home. (:

MST Day 2

2009-06-30T15:58:00.003+08:00

Engineering Materials today.
as usual met up with classmates to study.
totally no mood to study lor.
until very last minute my brains start to wake up and work.
haha.
luckily what I managed to memorised came out in the paper.

You know, i really don't like this.
I hate this, I detests this.
It's as if they don't care anymore.
It's saddening.

F. maths tomorrow. zzz.
My brain is going to sleep anytime.

I don't want to think about it anymore.
Fuck You.

MST Day 1

2009-06-29T19:53:00.002+08:00

HORROR!
haha. xD
Electrical Technology paper today.
woke up at 0630 to revise.
met up with stacey sean and jeffrey at 1000 for breakfast and study.
I'm really like a last minute chiong-ster.

was rather confident.
except for kirchhoff's law, i give up on that. LOL.
but the problem is, i did till question 4 which was the last question,
I kind of panicked, and my brain went blank. -.- (I don't know why, maybe time is running up)
seriously the page for that question was full of liquid paper.
I was like: wtf, i'm in deep shit. I don't think I can get the answers. -.- %@$#%$#@^!
I told myself to calm down and did it in pencil first.
luckily I got the answers in the end. == (should be correct lah. HAHA! =x)

1 down, 4 more to go.

Engineering Materials tomorrow.
YOSH! off to study while I feel determined. :D

Thoughts

2009-06-28T16:49:00.004+08:00

I had some thoughts that has been in my mind.
I thought about my life.
I thought of what happened in my life.
I thought of what that has impacted my life greatly.
I thought of what have I been doing these past few years.
I thought of the people around.
I thought of a lot of stuffs.

Why did I climb up so high and yet to jump down again?
Cause I couldn't handle it?
I'm not very sure of this question myself.

Why is that others could achieve it, yet I can't?
I came up with a answer.
Cause, I'm not 'the others'.
I am me, I'm an individual.

I want to study,
but these thoughts would not go away.
I really really want to figure out myself.
I guess I don't really know myself well.
Sometimes you thought that you know it,
but when others question you, you don't really know it.

I don't know what am I doing.
Have you wondered what are you doing in this world?
Study? Work? Money? Love? Suffer? Emotions?
And what do you carry with you when your life end?
Money? Love? Betrayal? Regret?
What is it?
I don't think I'll get an answer. (:

If you were to die the next moment,
what would you do?

Another senseless post huh.
Haha, I think I better go study now.
I don't wanna flunk my first MST. T^T

Don't ask me what's wrong, cause there's nothing wrong.

Hope

2009-06-26T23:49:00.003+08:00

The one who had its wings torn away,
falling away from heaven,
banished into the world of despair,
only to be able to find freedom in hell.

sighss.
i really wanna bang my head on the wall.
i don't feel like studying.
and MST is like 2days later?
omfgz.

MST suckkks. ):
C-prog suckkkkkkkkks!
T^T
H1N1 didn't shut sp down. oh mian.
i rather have e-learning next week, like what rp is doing now lor. zzz.

was supposed to meet up with cheryl and yeeliang for dinner today.
but well, due to some stuffs, we cancelled it.
sighs, hope to see them soon lah. :)

i lost hope in this fucking world.
i only trust myself and money. (:
i don't care what others say about me,
and neither am i interested.

seriously, this world sucks beyond words could describe.

off to mug for engineering materials~ >___>
sighs.

Birthday

2009-06-25T18:28:00.007+08:00

went to holland village for lunch
to celebrate shikin's belated birthday.

met up in jp and proceed to essential brew at holland v.

I ordered earl's grey ribeye steak. :D

TADA~!

Close up.

Super close-up. xD

Ready for my bangs?
HAHA!
Don't laugh lah hor. >__<

Siyi, Me and Shikin.

Melissa, Siyi, Me, Shikin and Mei Qi.

Her one-slice-belated-birthday-cake. HAHA! :D

Eating her cake.

A group photo!
We looked like idiots at the mrt station using my phone to take photo.
I placed my phone on the rather short wall using self-timer.
We all look as if we are staring at the wall if you don't spot my phone. -.-"
And apparently james that asshole doesn't like me. -.-
He said i was damn ugly in my bangs. wtf. T^T

Last but not least.
Happy Belated Birthday girl. ;DD

So hows my bangs?
I feel self-consious. -.-

Not everybody's life has a happy ending.
Some end it happily, some ended in tragic.
A question was raised just now: Happiness or Money?
Do you know why i chose money?

I think i'm numb. HAHA! xD

i really hate this world.

22/06/2009

2009-06-22T22:35:00.003+08:00

In my dreams last night I saw your face
You held me and washed away my tears
Then I woke to realize you're gone
I'm drowning in solitude again.

YES, I CHOPPED OFF SIX INCH OF MY HAIR AND CUT BANGS! :DD
i feel super happy. i don't know why.
hahaha!
except the part where i looked like a little like mushroom, i think overall it's nice.
heh.
went to chapter 2 for my haircut.
stylist was a lil pushy about selling the products but he's friendly. :D
i think my hair will look better when it grows longer. :D
satisfied.
sometimes when i walk out of some salon, i'll feel grumpy.
cause the hairdresser is like -.-
but i think my 20bucks this time is quite worth it lah.
HAHA, i just have to wait for it to grow longer.
cause it really looks kind of like a mushroom. -.-
huat soon even said i used a helmet to cut my hair. wtf zzz.

went for the final meeting before atc.
atc is on thurs. T^T
at least i get to see cheryl hanafi huatsoon and norsiah today. :D
somehow i feel relax and happy. :D
whenever i'm feel stress and out of place, old friends are the best remedy. :D

I WANT HOLIDAY EXTENSION! :(

no, this won't kill me.

Happy? Or Not?

2009-06-21T17:43:00.005+08:00

seriously, C-prog sucks. :(

tomorrow is worth looking foward to,
but on the other end, i don't look foward to it.
zzz, contradicting.

looking foward to tomorrow is because i'm cutting my hair. :D
should i try bangs? (like a little act cute lor hor? >__<)

should i? should i? @__@
or should i remain the current hairstyle.
quite sick of my current hairstyle lor, been around 5years already. -.-
and chopping off my hair length. :D
no idea how short i will cut it though. =/
depends on my mood tomorrow. :D

okay, on the other hand.
i've got meeting at night. T^T
i really really really want to ditch the coming camp.
cause i wanna study. :(
GRAAHH!
bobian, must go. T__T

zzz.
hungry hungry.
off to find food. :D

20 June

2009-06-20T15:14:00.001+08:00

Today's the last day.
There will be no turning back once the clock strike 12 midnight.

Goodbye.

CCA

2009-06-18T16:57:00.002+08:00

i just had my favourite ramen just now~ :D

anyway had CCA in the morning.
didn't want to wake up. >__<
only woke up at 0955 and set off at 1015.
CCA was... revision of the previous 2 lessons and theory.
the theory is.. zzz
omgz, totally confusing.
but the revision was not bad. haha. :D

after CCA, went to jp to buy ramen (:D) and get some notebooks.

i really need to study. >_____<

Lizards

2009-06-17T15:15:00.002+08:00

I swear that lizards are my freaking arch enemy by nature.
They are fucking disgusting, rubbery, shitty green, ugly, fat creatures.
don't tell me they are good 'cause they eat up the bugs.
NO! they don't.
they just scare the hell out of you and gives you goosebumps.
sibeh erxin lah.

Bring Me Peace

2009-06-16T23:37:00.002+08:00

These screams seems to soothe my heart by a little.

Prayers

2009-06-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

Determination, is pushing me
Perserverance, is what I bled
I wanted to believe in all of this
~~I wanted to believe in you~~

what is life all about? really.

sighs

2009-06-13T22:42:00.005+08:00

i know i've made my decision and there's no going back.
but somehow my heart feels very heavy.
i really hope it's the correct choice for me.
don't ask me anything.
i really don't feel like talking about it.
but thanks for the support. i really appreciate it. =)

was talking to shikin and was reminded about the past.
Batch 6.
haha, made me really happy.
how we did silly things together as a squad.
it was real fun. that 4 years of fun.
the 6 months of crap is nothing compared to these 4 years of fun.

am feeling very restless.
how?

i just realised there's one more problem.
sighs.
where are they when i need to talk...

Decision

2009-06-13T15:39:00.002+08:00

I've made up my mind.
I don't think I will change my decision.
There's only a probability of 15%.

Tomorrow

2009-06-12T16:33:00.001+08:00

tomorrow's the day.

Sentosa - DARE/FT/1A/01

2009-06-10T22:50:00.004+08:00

Class outing to sentosa.
not the whole class tho. =/
many were not able to make it.

good thing it's a sunny day. :D
the previous time i went with cheryl and yeeliang it was pouring. -.-

first time i got buried under the sand.
fucking heavy lah the sand, couldn't get up. zzz.
thanks to sean and daniel helping me take away the sand.
(they were the ones who buried me in the first place tho. >__> LOL)
well whatever~ had fun anyway. xD

played in the water, got beeped by the lifeguard.
why? cause we took the ball to out into the sea. -.-
well whatever, played volleyball too.
went to bath and headed to vivo for movies.
watched terminator salvation.
packed with actions, but the storyline was kind of confusing tho.. =/
overall i would give it a 3.5/5. ;D
the cinema was super cold. *brr*

headed home.
and blogging now.
aww man, it's kind of tiring after spending half a day at the beach exposed to the sun.
am red, but don't think to that extend that i'm sun burnt or something.
i think i still suit tanned to fair better. haha. :D

photo time~ ;DD

reached sentosa.
was waiting for naresh that super late ass.
it was fucking hot at that time. (look at my face, and you will know how hot it is. >___<)

were walking to the palawan beach.
changed while waiting for naresh. that explains that why some of us were in different clothings.
haha. xD

looking for a spot in palawan beach.
ended up we walked quite far in.

a group photo~! :D
i used to be standing at the back when taking group photos.
now, see what happens? i'm righhht at the front.
and actually i don't need to bend down one lor.
jit ren still can be seen even if i stand up straight. zzz. -.-
wee kiat bought a pair of sandals at the shop in palawan beach
cause his old pair of slippers decided to take a vacation at the sea. xD
so we got the lady there to help us take group photo.
she's very friendly lor. haha.
had a FUN day. :DD

这段路很辛苦也很寂寞，
但我再也不想停留在这。

hot hot!

2009-06-09T21:08:00.002+08:00

first thing first.
TODAY WAS DAMN BLOODY SCORHING HOT!
lol, really damn hot lah.
i thought i would melt under the sun or what.
but well, i still prefer heat to cold. xP
hopefully tomorrow's weather is like today. ;D

CCA today.
one hour. :D
better than the previous time. heh.
just that my left ear almost went deaf. HAH! (still don't know what's my cca right. xD)
manage to grasp the technique, but not very perfect tho.
practice makes perfect. ;D
hopefully the next few lessons would be something like today.

went back to hyss after cca.
collected yearbook.
(yea, i know my 'pretty' face hogs up like a quater of the page. no need tell me, tvym. ;D)
and that same face was on the banner for the public to see.
fuck, couldn't they have chosen a nicer photo. LOLZ.
nah, just joking. teachers will be telling me that it is my honour to have my face in the yearbook.
LOL.
continuous 2 years of my face in the yearbook,
hyss must have loved me in my npcc uniform. >___>
HAHA.
first time one was the one with waisiong, in no. 3uniform.
this time round was in no. 1uniform.
(but the photography decided to focus on my face rather than my uniform >__>)
kay kay, i'll stop fussing on my bloody face appearing in the yearbook and a super big banner. -.-

went up to the staffroom after going to general office to get the yearbook.
saw a mdm keh! :D
she said i lose weight. -.-
mdm keh: li er you lose weight leh.
me: huh got meh? don't have lah. haha.
mdm keh: got, you lost weight.
me: (decided not to continue with 'no lah, no lah') must be stress lah. haha.
well it's true anyway. xD
you never know what can stress do to you. haha.
btw, when i reach home after that, i went to measure my weight.
still the same lor. wtf.
after eating so much i still can't hit 50kg.

blah blah blah,
i just realised ONOW assignment is dued yesterday.
take that man! i am so dead.
LOL.
going to do it now. xP

holiday holiday holiday

2009-06-07T21:12:00.003+08:00

it's holidays~
i know i lag. LOL.
only lag for 2 days kay.
for those pri/sec school kids, our holiday is not like yours, 1month. (you lucky bastards)
it's only 3 weeks.
and out of this 3 weeks, i can only play for 1 week,
and the rest of the 2 weeks are for studying and mugging for MST when school reopens. T__T

no school tomorrow, which means...
NO NEED TO WAKE UP EARLY~
ok lah, though my waking up hours are late compared to secondary school,
it's still kind of early.
others get to go school at noon.
me? monday 9am and the rest of the days are 8am.
and the suckiest part is to get squashed in the train.
and really, you have to become an aunty to squeeze your way through.
zzz.

1hour of CCA on tuesday.
hope it's not as sucky as the previous one.
and go back to hyss to collect yearbook with some friends after that.

class outing on wednesday to sentosa~
hope nothing crops up...
time for a swim and a tan. ;DD
and pray hard that it doesn't rains. =/

recovering from flu.
damn fuck sia.
block nose, running nose, block nose.... UGH.
had a fever during the CI workshop.
and headache acted up when the workshop ended and was on the way home.

the workshop was....
well i would say it's not something i had expected.
forget about it.

STC...
i really had the thoughts of ditching it. >__<
but well, i have to go cause i have some roles to play.
and i don't want to kana shoot from other CIs.
i think the next would be me. >__<
ahh~ how carefree to be a cadet. =/

13 june, the day for a big decision.
i could say that i'm taking up a risky bet.
but well, it is really the key factor to my decision.
hope that i won't regret it.

enjoyment turning into responsibility.
a responsibility that is heavy and suffocating me.
how am i suppose to handle it?
throw it away? or continue carrying it till it crushes me?

CCA

2009-06-02T21:12:00.004+08:00

went for my cca for the first time.
well... i would say it's kind of disappointing tho.
why?
1. it only lasted for 30mins. (half of the time was actually wasted for some admin stuff)
2. the seniors were teaching us all the different stuff. 1 said this, 1 said that.
so i don't know which one is the correct/standard one. =/
but well, still it's kind of fun. ;D

wondered what did i do from 12nn all the way till 5.30pm?
hmm, didn't expect that i could actually slack the time off in this manner lah.
enjoyed my day today. xD
so.. after lesson ended, the class went to foodcourt 4 aka koufu.
but it was packed, so we da-bao food to moberly to eat.
hahaha, with the fallen leaves on the table.
but well, at least it's quiet and peaceful.
after finishing lunch,
one of the guys said: "lets go peanut butter already."
i went O_o huh? what peanut butter?
then he replied: peanut butter jam what.
me: -,-
haha, i knew they were going jamming, so i picked up the joke quick. lol
yea the guys went jamming after that, so just tagged along lor.
jamming studio has got air-con and beanbags.
so i tried to sleep. hahaha, but then, you should know lah, the noisy and all.
so i just rested for abit.
funny things happened in between. lmao-ed.
and i actually couldn't hear myself shout. yes, shout.
had problems talking to each other. haha.
ended up coming out of the jamming studio with partially of my voice gone. -.-
and yea, they "peanut butter" till 3.
some went for their rock-climbing
so me and the other 2 classmates went back to koufu to use our laptop to kill time.
went for cca, and headed straight home.

yea, that's my day.
well, looks boring right.
haha, at least i had some fun with my classmates today. =/

and damn, i only got a B for my CRS. zzz.
tho the module credit for CRS is only 2, but i'm still afraid it pulls down my overall GPA.
got to catch up using the next 2CA. at least one A.
C won't do any good. :(

to follow the head or the heart?

drown or swim?

2009-06-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

today was... as usual?
yea, can say so.

met up with my group mates in the morning around 8.15am
why? to double confirm everything
we did the experiment last week as it's kind of confusing,
so yea, met up to double check.
it's a freaking 10% alright.
can't blame me for being paranoid. xP
was late for lesson for 15mins,
cause we wanted to make sure our laboratory report was perfect, in a sense.

couldn't concentrate on the lectures and tutorial today.
and even e-learning in the lab, i was just going through motion.
(yes, e-learning in the LAB. you didn't see wrongly)
bah, it's damn frustrating when nothing goes into your head.
it's not like secondary school that i can spaced out , day-dream, sleep
and eventually still know what the heck the teacher is talking about.
i just merely can't concentrate, and bye-bye to that lesson.
zzz.

had a change of F.maths lecturer.
all i can't say is... horrible.
i can't understand what the heck she's talking about. T__T
i still prefer the previous one, though she teaches like a machine gun,
but well at least i understand perfectly and like her lectures. =/
i'm kind of worried, cause my maths is bad.
B4 for maths, that's like the lousiest grade in my class lahh. -.-

two bad news and one good news for me.

good news first.
good news is:
my poly CCA is starting tomorrow~! :DD
can't wait sia. xD

bad news is:
1. there's C-prog quiz tomorrow and i haven't really study,
cause i don't know what to study for it. -.-
well, i guess i have a little bit of idea, but still it's seems weird to study for it.
but i have to study for it. BAH! i don't know what i talking lah. cb. -.-

2. i'm still struggling whether to fill up the probation form,
and give it to my OC. graaah.
just wait till a certain date i have set to make up my decision.
let's just see.

well, i have to go study for C-prog.
but again...
nevermind, i off to "study", "revise" or whatever you call it for my C-prog.

Roller Coaster

2009-05-27T15:50:00.005+08:00

My life is like a roller coaster,
except than it always goes down and never comes up.

bad start today,
woke up at the time i am suppose to be out of house - 7.15am
was feeling seriously tired.
rushed and miss the train.
boarded the next train at around 7.50am.
was late for about 7mins. (teacher was late too. around 20mins hah!)
first lesson was thermofluid, i was actually dozing off half of the time.
second lesson - Electrical Technology.
was fine at the beginning.
but was totally lost when teacher was yapping and yapping about kirchoff's law.
i was feeling damn frustrated and stress lah.
after that was F.maths, manage to cool off a little cause i am able to catch everything the lecturer was teaching.
lunch-ed after that and had an hour lesson of engineering materials.

i was feeling really off today,
and i actually attitude one of my classmates in the morning.
i feel kind of bad.
maybe i should apologise later.
it's just that nowadays i feel frustrated (i don't know why),
and i feel that i'm like a hedgehog.

alright, don't laugh, i'm not that round.
i meant that i get frustrated easily and the "spike" will grow out,
and i'll get very harsh to the people around me.
seriously, what's wrong?

life's a fucked up bitch.
suffer.

alright, i have to chiong those bloody homeworks that are never ending.
yea, you've got it.
it's C-prog again.

paranoid

2009-05-24T16:46:00.002+08:00

Whenever I switch on my computer,
and i logged in to the msn,
I look at how many mails I've got.
I dreaded seeing mails, wondering if it is related to the coming ATC.
when I see that the mails were not about ATC, but something else,
I felt really relieved.

I appear offline most of the time,
why?
cause I'm afraid of other units CI coming to ask me about:
"How's the planning going?" and when I said I'm not very sure,
they asked me this: "I thought you're the acc? How come you don't know leh?"
I've got nothing to say, cause seriously, I'm tired of all the shit piled on me,
and I don't even bother to ask my unit CIs how's it going or whatever shit.
fuck, I'm feeling irresponsible and want to appear offline the whole time,
switch off my phone, so nobody can dump all the np stuffs onto me.

that's only one of the reason.
there's still more, but I don't wanna say it.

Fire died, Passion gone, Memories left.
I wonder when is the passion coming back?
Maybe soon. Maybe never.

it's really easy to be a follower,
I guess I'm just not suitable for a leader.

All I want to now is to study.
I don't feel the passion for NP already.

What's wrong?
80% of me said not to hand up the bloody form,
but 20% tells me that i can't abandon hynp yet.
so what's the decision now, I myself don't know.

negative

2009-05-23T18:14:00.003+08:00

just a short post before I go for my dinner.

well, I didn't go for my poly cca camp.
why? cause I went back to hua yi for training.
originally it was the sec 2s' drill badge test.
but I cancelled due to some reasons.
had normal training instead.
what can I say? I'm disappointed.
I felt that I've wasted my time there, and should have gone to the camp instead.
this might sound harsh, but seriously, what I saw was not what I had expected.
totally unprepared.
let's just put the drills standard one side,
some of their attitude tells me that they are not treating this seriously.
yes true, quite a handful was serious,
but what was needed to bring the squad down is just one or two black sheeps.

i thought by letting them take their own squad was a good idea for them to stand up independently,
but who knows that this plan of mine backfired.
all i could see was fooling around, pushing blames on each other, squadmates yelling at each other.
where's the squad spirit?

it's just 5months of this CI-ship.
and i'm thinking whether i should hand up the bloody probation form.

i don't even feel like going for ATC. -.-
~~life~~ being a CI sucks.
seriously.

camp.

2009-05-13T20:39:00.007+08:00

went for CCA briefing today.
was kind of nervous.
still thinking whether to go to the camp anot.
cause my friends aren't going, and the people who went are in groups.
meaning?
it will be hard to make friends with them.
zzz.
bah, i guess i will put the camp on pending first.
(though i handed up the camp fees already.... -.-)

on the other hand,
i feel like cutting my hair for a change.
nope, not cutting it damn short,
just a little bit different i guess?

off to complete off my C-prog.
(didn't finish it yesterday. >___<)

A Month.

2009-05-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

how long did i not update huh.
hah, lazy to count.

it has been a month since school started,
well, time really flies.
i've quitted my job.
reason being that i feel i'm starting to lack behind in my studies.
getting into this course wasn't easy, and i am not about to screw it up anytime soon.
well, i guess it's really time to buck up,
try to quit my bad habits of slacking like what i did in secondary school.
but sometimes when doing my work halfway i tend to go off track. >___<

a month.
sounds long huh.
poly life. well, i could say i am slowly adapting to it.
my class is alright, not too bad.
joined 2 CCA.
of course i join SP NPCC Club, perhaps i'll just be a normal not-so-active member.
for the other one....
i'm NOT telling.
LOL.
in case you laugh at me. (i'm sure you will)
tomorrow i'm going for CCA briefing, and there will be a camp for us.
hope it will be fun and no scaring lah. xD

kay kay,
i will be back to my homework(C-prog).
T___T

Computer Programming

2009-04-29T19:43:00.004+08:00

taking a break from the C-programming homework.
need to hand up tomorrow.
C-programming is fun lah, but i usually doze off in the class.
know why?
cause i don't freaking understands what the teacher is talking about.
wonder then how i do my homework?
simple.
teacher lets us try one or two example, good enough to help to do other simillar questions.
all i have to do at home is to copy and paste the information and do some editing.
queen of cheats man'. haha. xD
show you a little of my work.

keying in the codes and information first.

Build solution and Debug to get to this screen.
I think this screen is super cool lah. haha. xD

Welll, i guess it's time to continue doing my homework lah.
still got 3 more questions. T___T

OMGZ.
there's 'Our Nation, Our World' tomorrow.
and work too. damnz
after 3 days of not working i feel so slack, don't feel like working anymore.
>___<

kay kay, got to run. (not literally. -.-)

*edited*
i take back my words.
C-prog is not THAT fun.
it's drives you crazy when it constantly tells you there's error and you don't know how to correct it.
NOW IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZYYYY!

累了

2009-04-28T21:48:00.003+08:00

你们总是那么的霸道，

只会要我顺从你们的指示和意思，

从来不会想想我要的是什么。

你们知道我要的是什你们知道我要的是么吗？

不，你们以前，现在，或是将来都不会了解。

这不是关心，这是控制。

我真的很累了。

感觉到非常的辛苦。

my eyes weigh a thousand tons

2009-04-27T20:01:00.006+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeell.
i think i might as well leave my blog dead.
no lah, cause i no time to blog lah.
last week everyday after school go work, come home bath,
pack bag, then wait for hair to dry i go to bed liao.
fell alseep the moment my head hit the pillow.

school was so-far-so good.
but CRS (critical reasoning skills) is like english.
totally omg when i attended the lesson and i realised it is just like english.
wrote an essay of 200+ words for teacher to grade our grammar.
hopes she passes me, if not i will have to attend extra english tution or whatever it is every week.
>___<
long time never do essay liao lor,
then i anyhow crapped through with my super messy handwriting.
cause i was trying to write super fast. jia li hai mah. xD

modules that i like:
- materials engineering
- thermofluid
- electrical technology
- C programming (though sometimes it really drives me mad, but it's kind of fun)
F. maths is like so-far-so-good for me.
though it's starting to confuse me, but i kind of like maths now.

last week was really tiring.
but i manage to go out with yeeliang and cheryl before going to work on saturday.
been long since i saw yeeliang that retard. haha. xD
we weren't as high as last time, cause we were drained by the first week of school.
not yet adjusted to the timing yet.
but it feels good to hang out with them lah, i feel more comfortable.
cause poly just started, and the friends made are still not quite warmed up.
something like what siyi stated in her blog lah.
the process of making friends are really %#&$&^%#
old friends are better.
imagine you scold vulguarities.
old friends: laughs at you and tell you to shut up or curses with you.
new friends: totally shocked. like this > O___O
yea. that's what i feel lah.

some photos to liven up my blog.
credits: cheryl (that's why there is less of her in the photos, cause she's taking them)

At Mac eating our breakfast.

aiyer~ cheryl wants my photo. xD HAHAHA!

yeeliang not happy cheryl take his photo.

At Far East Plaza

buying bbt.

while waiting for me to buy the cheesy chicken....

they were SQUATTING down taking photos.

"what?! not happy ah, poke you with the stick then you know."

see, i told you he's retarded.

after many tries, we finally manage to get a not bad photo together. :D

yea, off to redo my C programming / do F.maths notes / do F.maths homework.

OMG~ TOMORROW GOT CRS. T__T

Poly life's starting very soon

2009-04-15T23:25:00.002+08:00

orientation week for poly freshmen.

well, first day of orientation.
students of school of MM were suppose to assemble at the auditorium.
when i went in, i was totally shock.
my mind was thinking: "oh my GOD!"
you ask why.
cause the auditorium was full of guys.
you really have to look carefully to find girls.
-.-

luckily there's 2girls in my class [including me]
if i am the only girl i would go crazy man'
ermm, to speak of that, i haven't really got to make friends.
our personal tutor 'forced' us to exchange names and numbers.
but well, i guess that doesn't really counts as making friends. =/
i'm bad with names and faces.
i mean, yes i can rmb the names to a matching face if there's only one or two.
but i can't handle it if there's like more than three or four.
hope that my class will be fun.
[shit, why do i feel that my class won't be that united. >____<]
only if they're like delta. [bonding real quick] =/

second day was SPICE training.
was late by a few mins, cause we couldn't find the building. >__<
when i reached the classroom, almost all of them was already there.
i was like thinking: 'shit.'
fortunately the lecturer have not started the training yet. xP
sat alone. YES, anti-social.
but you can't blame me for that. =/
lasted around 2hours. was feeling damn hungry lah.
downed to jp after that to my workplace.
reached there at around 1130 when my work only starts at 6 in the evening.
LOL.
cause i already brought along my work uniform and stuffs, so i'm kind of lazy to go home you see.
had the set lunch there. eat until damn full.
yes, i know i am a pig. xD

flag day tomorrow at redhill.
have to gather at the redhill mrt station by 0730. :(
guess that i will have to wake up by 6am.
hope that by tmr i can get to know more about my classmates. =/

i haven't completed my prepmaths.
so dead.
thinking back, why did i choose engineering when I HATE MATHS.
zzz.
actually i don't really hate maths that much.
it's just that i am lazy to calculate and remember formulas lah.
sometimes i really hate myself for being so lazy,
yet i don't have the will to push myself.
gahhh! *bangs wall*

shall end here.
[i know my blog is dead boring without any photos lah, but i lazy upload]
;X

screw up

2009-04-09T21:46:00.001+08:00

buy me a headphone, send me screamo songs
and smash my phone.
don't contact me, i'm tired.

Break

2009-04-04T00:25:00.003+08:00

Ask me out.
LOLZ.
For the whole of next week, i'm not working.

why?
cause i told my supervisor to put me on standby.
meaning?
only call me to work when they really don't have enough people.

i wanted to be on standby cause school starting,
i want to go out and spend even more money.
and time for a break after being a workaholic for this month.

Ask me out for shopping.
If not i'll be rotting at home.
;D

the world's changing, feelings are changing, people are changing.
it's no surprise.

complain queen

2009-04-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

RARRRRRRRRRRRR!
still feeling a little pissed about the incident just now.
i just sent a complain letter.
i know it's bad, but it really piss me to no end.

fri, sat and sun de nco camp was not bad.
shall post up the very very nice photos i took next time.
cause i really no time.

monday went to work like a zombie.
lols.
cause of the camp lah.
usually when i come back from camp, i need one week to recover my sleep.
and this pass 3days i'm working for whole day.
tmr also lor. lolz.

today in between my work i got break.
siyi also, so got her to accompany me to apply for some stuffs at sp.
then rush back to work, thinking i might not make it in time.
but i was too early.
so got one of my collegues who was also having her break to walk around jp with me.
LOL.
got to go shopping sometimes with her. heh.

tmr in between work also got longggg break.
going buffet with another collegue in that 2-3hours break.
hoho. xD

now i'm actually eating larb gai (minced chicken salad) from siam kitchen.
it's damn nice, my new favourite.
my previous favourite was minced chicken with basil. xD
tmr chef is cooking beef with basil and sambal kangkong for lunch. woo~
beef is like my favourite meat lah. xDD

oh yah, i'm not quitting my job anymore.
instead, i told my supervisor to put me on standby.
meaning if she really not enough ppl then let me work.
cause april most of the part timers are leaving, so they wont have enough ppl i guess.
yep, so, still working.

enjoy life while you can.

NCO Camp Day One.

2009-03-28T10:52:00.004+08:00

no shit i'm at camp now.
LOL.
my first camp as a CI. :D
cadets are having activities now, so i'll blog a little.
but before that...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARAH~

seriously i wanted to send a birthday msg at 12am.
but i forgot. very sorry. >___<

now i'm like walking zombie. -.-
cause yst was the first day of camp.
starting was, well, i can say that it screwed up big time.
and something got me pissed too. =/
solo night was uber cool for me.
cause my batch didnt have it.
and this time round i participated it as a CI, walking around to patrol.
i walked alone for most of the time.
the staircase is like omfg scary lah.
go till 5th floor go there slack awhile almost fall asleep. lolz
after solo night and lights off,
ordered mac at around 2am,
then the guys play some horror games,
the sound effect only make me almost choke on my food.
slacked in logistics room and watch Saw 5
lol lah the guys, M18 de gore still can laugh. wtf pro.
M18 gore is macham like porn/comedy to them lah. pro shit.
watch till around 3.30am.
slept in the logistics room, can fall alseep don't know why. zzz.
so can say never sleep liao de lor.
now i damn groggy lah, can't process things right.
later still got their promotion test.
die liaozxzxz.

later at night got campfire~ weeeeeee. xD
leaving to my NCOs to plan.
but really need to thank them alot, cause this camp is practically runned by them.
thanks guys. really appreciate it. ;D

well gtg off. camp is still on siol. >____<

Updatessss

2009-03-25T21:41:00.002+08:00

well i guess it's time for me to update.
but. life for me now is all about work work work and work.
been kind of negletcting hynp stuffs.
i know i'm not a good CI, but i'm trying my best to do the stuffs. ):

sometimes have you ever wondered what's the aim of your life,
my aim of my life is to earn money. for what? i don't even know.

what's my motivation?
my motivation to keep me going as a CI? i think i lost it.
i feel so lost now. i don't know.
hope that i can find it back real soon, or i'll be in big trouble.
it's true that i enjoy going back for training.
even though sometimes i feel so tired, and don't feel like moving or taking over the unit,
i still like to go down there and just watch how my cadets do their stuffs.
the problem is, i don't really like the admin stuffs.
not that i'm irresponsible or what, but working really weighs me down.
yes, i'm working for poly fees and some extra cash to spend,
but i feel that it's kind of irresponsible... i don't know how to describe it.
tell me, as a CI, does a unit comes first or money?
the NCO Camp haven't even started, yet my morale is down, feeling like a failure loser.
i bet i'm going to screw this NCO camp big time.

no, i don't understand.
ftw dammit.

Enrollment

2009-03-17T01:29:00.003+08:00

Enrolment today~ :D
now i'm using my new laptop to update my blog.
heh. xD

went together with jonathan and waisiong and his parents.
saw songrong there.
i was like: O__O songrong! and i kind of smacked him =x
over reacting i know. >__<
lol, i totally forgot he has the same course as me. -.-
noobshit. heh. xP

enrollment macham like don't know what.
stations by stations. -.-
kay, whatever.
the best part is the purchasing of laptop lah. xD
heh.
but, the student card photo sucks big time.
they pull the photo until your face look as if it is as wide as a pancake. wtf.
super ugly lah, and it's going to follow you for like 3 blardy years.
zzz.

kay kay,
going to sleep soon, tomorrow still got work.
and it's like 1.30am now. -.-
cause promise to help my supervisor do some stuffs.
then just finished it nia, so now update a little then i go sleep. xD

next time~! ;D

>:O

2009-03-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

ROAR.
so damn sleepy right now.
but i don't know why that i'm tired yet i can't sleep.
i must at least lie on the bed for like half an hour before i can sleep.
sometimes it's like i go to sleep at 1am.
then 2am i can finally go to sleep. -.-

yesterday night slept at around 2am.
cause i was kind of waiting for the beef noodles i bought from my workplace to be digested before i go to sleep.
yummy~ :D
heh. xD
ever since i'm working, everytime when i work B shift, i will dabao supper home.
LOL. yay to more weight. xD

kay kay, so woke up around 0930 this morning.
totally zzz.
bathed, slacked, go to school.
collected my O levels cert and testimonial blah blah blah.
then started training.
most of the time i was in np room doing proposal.
zzz lah the proposal.
work until no time do. sighs.
after training which is around 4pm, rushed to work.
was in a daze initially. ate dinner.
and it's like back at the kitchen i toppled 2cups of ice onto the table.
then when filling the cups with ice-water for the customers,
i was kind of distracted by my own thoughts, and guess what.
the water overflowed. -.- luckily it's at the back lah, not infront of customers. zzz
my very first reaction was like: O__O wtf?! &#!@^&#%!@
then faster pour away some of the water.
everytime go to work from training i will be like half dead.

yes ah!
monday go enrol for poly then buy laptop.
hoho, then when working got break can use laptop watch shows and play games. xD

told my supervisor i will be working till around the end of this month,
then i'm quitting.
then she really want me to work till the very very very last day of this month. lol.
but it's okay lah. heh.
maybe poly holidays shall go back work, since the people then are very nice and can earn extra bucks to pay for school fees. :D
this week got quite alot of hours. so it means.... $___$
understand hor. xD

shit shit shit.

9March2006.

2009-03-09T15:21:00.003+08:00

it's been exactly 3years.
so fast yet painfully slow.

i guess i really did not update for a longgg time.
>___<
working, sleeping, eating and slacking is all i do.
quitting after this month,
time to relax before school starts,
and some time to get the poly stuffs ready.
bag, laptop(buying from the school), clothes, new stationery blah blah blah.
oh, and shoes too. xP
waiting for my pay to be deposited into the bank~
well, can't say it's alot, but at least enough to buy some essential stuffs yea.
actually i'm kind of sick of this lifestyle, really really really can't wait for poly to start.
my enrollment day is on the 16March. The very last day. -.-
get over with the damn complicated enrollment shit, and i'm on my way to the poly lifestyle.

well, whatever.
boring life.

the feeling of your heart being wrenched out. that kind of pain.

WORK = MONEY = :D

2009-02-16T12:11:00.002+08:00

You can never get what you love, but you can love what you get.
That's all it matters. Don't you think so?

yoho~
lately i've been working/slacking/doing np stuffs.
LOOL.

yep yep,
aku is working. xD
let me tell you guys some loser moments of mine when working.
on my very first day of work which is wednesday,
i slipped and fell in the kitchen and hit my leg which i only realised it till the next day.
cause i saw my leg swollen with a big bruise. -.-
tell me, how loser can i be. falling down on the FIRST day of work. zzz.
second day (saturday. valentine day), i fell again. -.-
this time round, i hit my chin on the chair.
wtf sia.
thanks to my shoes eh. -.-
hmm, my third day(sunday) was at jp's outlet.
my manager suddenly called and told me to go jp outlet instead.
so yea, went there.
very little customers compared to lot 1's.
so yep, going for work later again. :D
haven't had dinner before at there, so later i guess i'll go there for my dinner. xD

and shitxzxz.
i haven't do my NCO camp proposal. T____T
damnit.
bahh, whatever.
i go eat my brunch first.
byee~

Mentally tired

2009-02-08T22:44:00.002+08:00

when will you wake up?

seriously, it has been one week since i updated.
my blog is like stuck at my JAE results. -.-
either i'm lazy or too busy to update.

things i've been doing:
- sentosa trip with cheryl and yeeliang
- visit to chestnut drive npcc unit
- shannon's farewell dinner
- hynp secondary one orientation
- bought new handphone
- busy rushing SIO
- doing up the schedule for this coming friday's training
- watching naruto
- spacing out once in awhile

i'm seriously lazy to upload photos.
been very sloppy this few days.
now i see np admin stuffs i scared.
feel like suffocating.
tons of it, macham never ending. -.-
people deem being a CI as an ezpz job, but it's never.
we are like saikang warrior.
or even more than saikang warrior.
bahh whatever, i'm still continuing this CI-ship. =)
never give up, never die.
rest awhile to walk a longer distance.

and seriously, 'seriously' this word is getting into almost every sentence of mine. -.-
kay, so really seriously saying, don't piss me off.

can poly seriously start anottt. zzz.
can't wait for the t-shirt, shorts, sandals life. LOL.
no lah, cause i'm rotting already.
and hopefully can get a job soon, cause i need money to buy poly clothes and stuffs.
laptop settle already, so no need a set aside money for it. :D
and saving up also.
ahhh! can't wait to go attend lectures on aeronautical engineering. -.-
lol.
i know 3 guys from my class is going to the same course as me.
but then again, all the people i know who is going for this course....
is ALL GUYS!
wtf? where are the girls? T___T
and and and
when is the enrolment package gonna come? D:

24hour a day is not enough. seriously.
and what's wrong with me. -.- zzz
am i getting more seriously serious? LOL -.-

shut up, seriously shut up.
i see no point.

JAE Posting Results.

2009-01-30T07:45:00.004+08:00

YO PEOPLE~!
now it's like 0745hours.
why i wake up so early...
obvious lah, the posting results came in via sms at 0642.
and i was still sleeping like a pig until my phone alarm went off.
and i freaking saw 5msgs.
my first reaction: must be people wish me good luck.
second reaction: oh no, must be the results come liao.
sibeh scared can, don't dare to read the msg.
but in the end, i lie on my bed and open up the msg.
and my reaction was: *reading* then "YES AH!"
but of course not so loud lah, people still sleeping you know. LOL.

so much crap,
going to tell you what i got into.
and and,
anybody going to that course tell me can? xD
i know that waisiong is going to the same course as me. heh.
and you ass, stop saying how suay you are, it's you honour hor.
hahahah! xD

there you go:

well, what to say.
I definitely look forward to going to Singapore Polytechnic. :D

AHHHH

2009-01-28T21:33:00.002+08:00

let's abandon the past.

OMG OMG OMG OMFG!
i just found out the jae posting results is going to be out at 8am.
i was freaking shocked.
i stared at the screen and i was like:
O___O knncb! wtf?!
LOL.
kay whatever, i making a big deal out of it.

but then again,
spoil my plan. =/
my plan was to go out with cheryl and yeeliang
and prepare to sit at the roadside and wait for the msg to come in
and we look at it together like some idiots. heh. xD
=/
bahh, whatever~

let's talk about cny.
=/
cny....
IT'S A PAIN IN THE ASS.
seriously irritating.
but the good thing is, not much people asked about my grades,
they were more interested if i chose poly or jc and the courses.
xD
but at least, i manage to shut up her mouth up.
(want to know? come ask me personally. >___<)
something i hate about cny is all the visiting and bai-nian you know.
it's like so fake.
i rather you just give me that blardy angbao.
and the shows on tv during cny are HORRIBLE lah.
zzz.

people look down on me.
many believe i can't even get good grades.
my own family believe that there's a chance i'll be in ite.
insulting isn't it. (no offence)
they don't even trust me.
people see me playing, slacking, sleeping in class.
after school i don't stay back to study,
my mum comes home from work, all she see is me using the com.
But.
when i study, slog like shit, cramping all the facts in my stupid pea size brain,
do any of you people see it?
the answer is a freaking NO.
so shut the hell up and scram far awayyy.
all my relatives were surprise and happy(according to them) that i got such grades.
what? this is a fucking insult.
none trusted that i can get such grades.
nobody believed in me.
what's this world? it's rotten.
i swear i'll let all of your jaws drop to the ground next time.

and something damn great now.
my arm, has 3 different shades. zzz
and my hands (as in hands, not arms) is dark like _________
seriously, my palm is pale compared to the back of my hands.
something like _______ hands.
T________T
i'm gonna soak myself in bleach. =X

blahda blahda blahda

2009-01-20T20:39:00.003+08:00

see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil.

talk about the kayaking course?
heh, super fun lah~!
first day got other group of people joined us for kayaking 1star.
partner a guy from that group, he told me to add him on friendster at the end of the day.
guess what, i couldn't find him on friendster. -.-
bahh whatever~
second day was to revision of 1star and start of 2star.
had to do a capsize with a spray deck on.
almost drowned. LOL!
and oh, he wei that bitch.
we keep calling each other bitch, and even shouted at each other in the middle of the road.
and by the end of the second day, all the people super high already lor.
we ran across those big big roads with super fast vehicles and screamed like mad.
heh. xD

look at he wei and the pole.
his shirt same colour lah!
LOL! HAHA!

today had delta meeting for the mass camp stuffs,
only a few came. =/
me, cheryl, yeeliang, junhao, yanchin, faiz and fairuz
faiz left first, then the rest accompanied me to buy cny clothes. =/
feel so weird lah. >____<
then fairuz went off.
the rest of us went to play pool.
i first timer lah, super noob. =X
but i manage to score some with them letting me a little.
it's super nice and fun. :D
going to go play more if i can.

awww, this week is soo full. =/
tmr got np training
then thursday going to junhao's unit in the day and agm at night.
friday got kayaking whole day
saturday kayaking whole day
sunday sure tired like shit and i need to pack my room.
monday is cny liao lorr.

cny sibeh sian,
all the relative will start asking what's the results, what you've been doing recently
blah blah blah.
damn irritating lah.
i don't mind if they ask one time or two,
but the problem is that they will ask again and again. =/
gahhhh!

anyway, i think i will die of fatigue sooner or later lah.
heh. xD

booties~

2009-01-16T20:53:00.004+08:00

went back to unit today to meet batch 7 to talk about some stuffs
headed home and slackkkk. =/

oh, kayaking course starts tmr!
can't wait to wear my new booties and go down into the sea! :D

tada!

he wei told me got his booties at 20bucks.
but tues i went with cheryl and yeeliang to beach road,
the uncle charged me 22 bucks.
reason being?
he wei was wearing npcc based tee-shirt.
zzz.
no fair. =/

heh, but anyway,
i'll miss training tmr cause of the kayaking course. =[
kayaking course is like 0800 to 1830
sunday too.
and next week's friday and saturday.
oh greaaat, i'll be like as black as _________ (fill in the blank yourself, idk what to use as a comparison =/)
can't wait!

i've been lucky nowadays,
like being selected for kayaking course.
20 people out of 130+ (5 from each squad)
so tmr will be seeing some delta peeps. =)
and my not bad Os results.
but like what people say,
bad luck comes when your luck is gone.
so...
for people who dislike me, hate me, wishes me dead,
not happy i got selected for kayaking course, or i don't deserve such grades for Os,
you better pray/curse that during tmr's kayaking, i'll drown in the sea.
either the kayak crushes me, the seaweed in the sea tangles my leg, or the ghost in the sea pulls me down.

kay lah, whatever~
i know there's people lurking around who hates me lah hor. :D

Past, Present, Future

2009-01-16T11:41:00.002+08:00

i'm letting go everything in the past,
looking foward to the future.

some don't understand other people's problem
and all they think are about themselves,
i really don't care anymore.
i faced this kind of problems again and again.
i'm really sick of this.

responsibility,
see if you're capable of taking it.
some can cope, but some can't.
Can I?

Human are Hypocrites. ;D
it's no use if you don't understand the responsibilities i have, and you start grumbling. i seriously don't give a fuck about it. =)

12 Choices

2009-01-15T21:07:00.003+08:00

HEY PEOPLE~!
last post was about results,
this post about choosing my course.
heh. :D
i took so long to choose.
i think i made yeeliang pek chek also,
cause i cannot make up my mind. xD
heh~!

know why?
cause i pick out the course i prefer
then i go research about the diplomas accepted in NTU and NUS
then i cancel cancel, in the end cancel alot.
in the end i really kisiao anyhow put liao. =/

here:

i even put law and management as my 3rd choice.
LOL at TP somemore. TP is like at Tampines. LOL
i must be really mad.
i scored 12, i put at 20 and 22 points as my 9th and 10th choice.
i even put down a new course (possibility of getting in is quite high)
i really must be mad. heh.
anyway, after submitting it, i feel less stressed.
seriously ah, choosing course is even more stress than Os lah can.
12 choices is quite alot lehhh.

Can't wait for poly life now~! :D
a total new experience.
hands-on experiences, totally different to the 10years of education we had before.
the only troublesome thing is that need to buy somemore clothes. =/
heh.
can't wait for 19feb. :D
i'm happy yet not. i'm feeling very stress...

O levels results

2009-01-12T20:03:00.003+08:00

COME ON PEOPLE~
I'M SUPER HAPPY TODAY.

yea, i bet you want to know my results righhhhttt?
hahahhaah~!
at least i can say i got what i wanted,
and i'm eligible for the course i wanted.
come on, here's my results:

English - A2
Combined Humanities - B4
Mathematics - B4
Science (Physic/Chemistry) - A2
Art - A2
Principles of Accounts - B3
Chinese - A2

L1R4 - 12
L1R5 - 16

when taking results i was damn freaked out
i ask mdm lye how i did
then she say something like "you can go jc de results, not bad lahh"
around there lah.
then she pass me the results slip and form A.
i look at the results slip, the first thing i saw was English - A2
then i literally screamed into mdm lye's face "MY ENGLISH GOT A2 LEH! OMG! OMG!"
lols, then she told me to open up the Form A.
my hands shivering lah, then i tell mdm lye "my hands shivering sia"
then she wait for me to open it up.
seeing the score inside....
i was soooo damn happy lah. (i think i screamed into her face again)
LOL! can't blame me. =x

i aimed for L1R4 10, i got 12
i aimed for L1R5 15, i got 16
no A1s but i got 4As,
but i'm happy already. :D
i got lucky for the second time. =)
i'm glad i passed maths, somemore i got a B. :D
but poa was a little disappointing, i aimed for an A.. but i got a B.
some may think my results are so-so, but i'm happy with what i got.
i did try my best and mugged until i want to die.
but all is worth it.
next is time to choose the school and course.
;D

i'm happy with my life now.
completing CIBTC, making a bunch of friends, getting some really close ones too.
going to my unit, seeing my cadets improve bits by bits.
Os is finally totally over.
graduating and out of huayi getting the score i'm happy with.
and i'm going to work soon and i can have money. :D

but the thing i dread about is this year's cny...

life is soooo hectic

2009-01-10T19:38:00.002+08:00

updates about training today.
woke up at freaking 6am today. (i only slept at 12am+ last night)
zzz...
reached school and changed yada yada....
then there's this fund raising going on lah, so pushed back the training time by half an hour.
yeppp, and err went down in full uniform to conduct the training.
waisiong jonathan and hong keng came too to help. :D

gaahhh! i really want my own drill cane.
okay, that's random..

and don't know what's with the cadets today,
they keep calling the guys ma'am and me as sir.
especially that taoguang ahh, influence the rest. tsk tsk.
LOLS.
did drills, see good improvements.
but as what we always say lah hor:
"there's room for more improvements"
hahaha.
all i need them to do now is the push themselves further more,
do what they think it's right and be confident about it. :D
hopefully the next training which is on wednesday, i can see even better drills.
and before dismissal i briefed them about some stuffs and off they go~

had lunch with mr tan and guoliang.
mr tan treat me lunch, cause i'm like totally broke.
Os results, monday comeee faster so i can go work.
went back to school to have the AGM.
went home at 4plus. *phew*
lie on the sofa and i fell asleep. -.-
only woke up at around 7.15pm.
eating dinner soon and it's almost 8pm.

ROAR!
why can't the results day comeeeeeee faster?
oh yah, still need to wear uniform for the last time.
YAY~! (hear the sarcasium?)
wonder how's is my results. i bet it sucks. =x
i bet that tmr night alot won't be able to sleep. HAHA!
maybe tonight cannot sleep already lor. heh...
monday monday monday monday monday.
hope my results doesn't sucks like hell.
something over 15 for L1R4, i'm in deep shit.

Things to acheive

2009-01-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

2009
i have yet to set my targets and goals.

number 1:
- to be a all rounded CI.
(can i? i barely started and i'm feeling super stress already)

number 2:
- to chiong my studies in poly
(though i know to certain extend i will slacken down)

number 3:
- gaining respect from others.

about gaining respect.
all i can say is - fuck the world!
whatever i do, my mum disapprove.
now, i'm looking for a job that doesn't clash with np trainings
like at the restaurant cause they have more flexible working hours.
but what, my family keep insisting i go and work at those office or whatever shit,
cause they think that working at a restaurant is like a waste of my education.
what? fuck them i tell you!
it's only a part time job, what do you think, i'm not going to work at a restaurant for the rest of my life.
i already give up of studying the course i wanted to, and chose some course that can enable me to earn money in the future.
so what do they want somemore? can't i even enjoy my only passion and interest - npcc?
going to the cibtc, i got reprimanded for more than 10times. (that's an understatement)
going back to unit, settling np stuffs, i got nagged and scolded.
whatever i do, they always disapprove saying it's for my own good.
do they think about me? they don't even respect me.
SCREW THEM ALL!
just want to control my life.
how i wish daddy is still here, he always supports whatever i like to do.
when i was sec1 and wanted to join np, he was the only who really supported me.
what's my family? i don't even feel like part of it.
screw the world.
seriously i feel like throwing a chain of vulguarities into their face.